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Dont you dare tell me that nothing matters. Everything matters, every fucking drop of rain, every ray of sunlight, every whisp of cloud matters and they matter cause i can see them and if i can see them, they can see me, and i know theres an entire world out there that cares, hiding behind a world that doesnt, afraid to show who it really is and with or without you, i will drag that world out of the dirt and the blood and the muck until we live in it, until we all live in it.

Castles

And I want to play hide and seek, give you my clothes, tell you I love your shoes, sit on the steps when you take a bath and massage your neck, kiss your face and hold your hand and go for a walk and hug you when your anxious and hold you when you hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and whimper when im next to you, and whimper when im not, melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh and wander who you are but accept you anyway. I wander the city thinking but im empty without you, I want what you want and think im losing myself. But i'll tell you the worst of me, and try and give you the best of me, becasue you dont deserve any less. I'll answer your questions when i'd rather not and tell you the truth when I really dont want to and i'll try to be honest becasue I know you prefer it. So just hang on for just ten more minuites before you throw me out of your life, forget who i am, and try to let me get closer to you and somehow communicate some of the over-whelming, undying, over-powering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind expanding, on-going, never ending, love i have for you..

d.o.a

Go on, accuse me of existing in a castle. Go on and say i'll finially be woken and broken, when im sorely dissapointed with how life really is, how the real world is. But dont you see? You call me a dreamer and i'll call you comfortable. While im on my adventures, you'll be safe with your ego and your hiding beneath the skin of an unlearned warrior. Oh god, he makes being lost look so good and so good is better than nothing at all.

Sinking Feeling.

We all have dreams,

They are unbreakable,

This world is ours,

This ships unsinkable.

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They're chubby, bald, steak eating, cigar smoking, type A pigs, who get more turned on by the bloomberg wire than by any hot nannies. Actually, its all of you in about 5 years time. So take it from me; enjoy tonight becasue your future looks pretty fucking bleak.

Books

I miss reading very much, so ive compiled a list of books that i would like to read, it goes as follows;
Dear Diary - Lesley Arfin
Twilight-Stephenie Meyer
Junk-Melvin Burgess
No-one Belongs Here More Than You-Miranda July
World War Z-Max Brooks
The Catcher In The Rye-J.D.Salinger
The Trick Is To Keep Breathing-Janice Galloway
Prozac Nation-Elizabeth Wurtzel
The Virgin Suicides-Jeffery Eugenides
Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs-Chuck Klosterman
Learning To Love You More-Miranda July
The Perks OF Being A Wallflower-Stephen Chbosky
I Was Told There'd Be Cake-Sloane Crosley

Im certain theres more aswell.

Quite.

Hey, You and I are going to have a big love affair and it wont work but somewhere in the middle, my god we tried.

English Way

You can find your hope amongst the crowds of all the people you've let down. We'll find a way to make this okay. We always skipped through the nights. It's all that we need to and maybe it's all we could ever need just to make us feel alive. You are the one, the only one, you are the one the only one, the one, the one. You are the one, the only one, you are the one the only one, the one, the one. I will never give up on you for all the times you've sat and sang to me, tried to make me better. So now i'll try to let you know that this is the English way to make a soul fit back together. Please don't speak these words, just save them. Walk with me and take a trip. We'll only stop for water and some other things. We always skipped through the nights. It's all that we need to and maybe it's all that we'll ever need, just to make us feel alive. You are the one, the only one, you are the one the only one, the one, the one. You are the one, the only one, you are the one the only one, the one, the one. I will never give up on you for all the times you've sat and sang to me, tried to make me better. So now i'll try to let you know that this is the English way to make a soul fit back together. Too many lives have been lost unto all this, of too many people that have lost their voices. I will never give up on you for all the times you've sat and sang to me tried to make me better. So now i'll try to let you know that this is the English way to make a soul fit back together.

Moderation

Everything is okay in moderation. Only problem with this, is that i dont want you in moderation.

In all honestly, i dont know how i feel about you. Yeah 'that' happened, and i dont regret it, but i dont think i want to call you my boyfriend. You're lovely, and you make me smile, and you're good in bed, and you're kind, and you make an effort to talk to me, we get on, have things in common, you live close, you get on with the same sort of people that i do, but, you're just not...it. I dont know, well i do, im comparing you to someone else, and its no fault of your own, but you will never be them. No-one will ever be them. I think i just enjoy someone liking me more than i like them for a change.

I'd like to think i have alot to say, but i dont, and im almost certain that im the only one who reads these anymore anyway.

On the plus side, i won a blackberry at work, joy of joys.

manflu

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish it does not take offence and is never resentful, love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse to trust, to hope, and to enure whatever comes.

I'm dying in bed again.

november 1st.

"Success is not built on success, it is built on hardship and failure. You're gonna have to learn how to lose before you can win. You're gonna have to learn how to sink, before you can swim"